Posted by Glyn on September 20, 2001 at 15:15:23:
I was with my girlfriend for four years. Apparantly she never loved me. Numerous people have told me this (her friends) and she herself has confirmed that she was afraid to break up with me because she thought I'd take it badly.
For years she cheated on me, over and over again, in some sick effort to get me to break up with her. I went through a lot of pain, but I forgave her every time. Guess she hadn't thought of that.
So on and on we went, for FOUR YEARS, from ages 15 to 19. I loved her with all my heart, and though that may be hard to believe coming from a 19 year old, it's true. I loved her.
She left me for someone else, and since then hasn't shown one bit of regret for what she's done to me. She's happy as a clam with her new boyfriend. Meanwhile, I'm at a school where the only people I knew was her and her friends, now I have no one. A lot of my friends/potential friends were her friends too.
I feel very alone.
I feel completely betrayed.
and I have no one to talk to.
So I'm posting on the net.
If you've got something, anything, that could help me deal with this in some way, please e-mail me. It's been over a month, and I feel the same fscking pain every day.
I'm sick of it, I'm sick of thinking about her all the time. It's a waking nightmare.